My first blog entry

This is of course my first blog entry I have ever been a part of! I am not really sure the direction that my blogs will go. Only God knows. Roy asked us at church today what we want our hearts to be like when were 85. Do we want to be small hearted and have anger and close mindedness. Do I want to be cynical and judgemental of others. Or do I want to be soft hearted and whole heartidly desire to live like Jesus. Wow! I have to take a step back. I never really put much thought on myself being old. In doing that it really makes me see how I am living now and how that will affect me when I'm older. I do not desire to be cynical and critical of others. I don't want to be miserable and isolated from the world that God created for us. I am reading a book called '12 steps for the recovering Pharisee.' The book tied really well with what Roy said today about living against things and not for something. I know I can't be perfect, but I do desire to be more like Jesus. This book has helped me look at anthers perspective when something makes me upset or judgemental. I kind of disect it if you will, and take a look at different angles. I put myself in anothers shoes now. This has been a humbling process. It has softened my heart. I pray that God will continue to soften my heart in ways that will help me pour out Grace. I fail miserably and not being a Pharisee. I am so happy that God has opened that door though. He is helping me look inside at myself. What will happen I do not know. I am at his Mercy. I surrender to you God.